Happy 18th Birthday to My Amazingly Gorgeous, Talented, Beautiful, Kind, Intelligent, Crazy Sister. You are truly an amazing person and I could not have wished for a better sister. You always know how to cheer me up when I’m sad, make me laugh when I need to and you help me smile everyday.

We have had our ups and downs but it makes me happy to say we are closer now than we have ever been. You are my Best friend, Partner in Crime and Sister. I love you more than you will ever know and I am truly blessed to have you in my life. I am so proud of you and how far you have come and can’t wait to be by your side for another 18 years.

I hope you have a magical day as you truly deserve it, I love you forever and always Brianna Treadwell; every psycho, thoughtful, weird part of you xoxoxo

Feeling totally alone in this world. Constantly struggling to find happiness and acceptance. No matter how hard I try to think positively I know that my brain is wired differently and some people just don’t understand that. I hate how this probably seems like a pity party post and that all my brain does is over analyse every single little thing.

Is it too much to ask for; Just one person to be my friend? Someone who actually gives back. I try so so hard but it’s like reaching out and trying to hug a brick wall. Hard and Cold.

I know what you’re doing
I see it all too clear
I only taste the saline
When I kiss away your tears

You really had me going, wishing on a star
But the black holes that surround you
Are heavier by far

I believed in your confusion
You were so completely torn
Well it must have been that yesterday
Was the day that I was born

There’s not much to examine
There’s nothing left to hide
You really can’t be serious
If you have to ask me why

I say good-bye

‘Cause I am barely breathing
And I can’t find the air
I don’t know who I’m kidding
Imagining you care, and I could stand here
Waiting a fool for another day
But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price
Worth the price, the price that I would pay

Everyone keeps asking, what’s it all about?
I used to be so certain and I can’t figure out
What is this attraction? I only feel the pain
There’s nothing left to reason and only you to blame
Will it ever change?

‘Cause I am barely breathing
And I can’t find the air
I don’t know who I’m kidding
Imagining you care, and I could stand here
Waiting a fool for another day
But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price
Worth the price, the price that I would pay

But I’m thinking it over anyway

I’ve come to find, I may never know
Your changing mind, is it friend or foe?
I rise above or sink below
With every time you come and go
Please don’t, you come and go

‘Cause I am barely breathing
And I can’t find the air
I don’t know who I’m kidding
Imagining you care, and I could stand here
Waiting a fool for another day
But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price
Worth the price, the price that I would pay

Would love nothing more than to go for a long walk/ drive or to just punch the shit out of something right now. Feeling so Claustrophobic in this house!